I want to be a teenager again |
Chilly air in a warm car A grey sweatshirt Windows down The beat in my bones The beauty of being young Who cares who you are? All that matters is who you want to be Just try to feel the world Sink into your own bones And the carnal desires of your heart Be whoever you think you are Whoever you want to be Freedom means letting go Trust yourself for once Nobody gets it anyway Maybe he does but maybe he pretends He's a free spirit Like you, he wants to just forget who he is Where he comes from And he finds solace in making you laugh Perhaps in understanding Never good enough Never smart enough Never full enough Never centered enough in the morally superior Never free but always perfectly preserved Stand atop a hill Look down Never leave Always wonder where you'll be But never when you get there Perhaps twenty is just a dream Text me "I love you" Words like honey Ears are so ready Crave your attention A thing I don't know well Do you get me? Run away and just breathe Feel the earth in between my fingers Climb up and up Look down and breath Smile like a crazy person Mine. Climb down and suddenly dull Elation gone like elevation Wind turned to dirt Freedom turned to weight Life is such a shame Raised like a sheep Bred like a beat Same as a second ago A carbon of the last A mirror match Forget that shit fast I'm young I'm free I'm unlike all the rest Last name or not It makes no difference You all look at me like a pest Face me Trace my face My lips My hips My drops My scraps My overwhelming and uncanny traps Accept the wrong My heart My courtesies and beliefs My honesty My eyes wide open The broken world Rose glasses to hell All the world is fucked up Grey Boring Dull UGH A flower in the rough But wilting with effort Stay alive my friend Water for your soul Breath inspiration like a last breath Sacrifice For art, I will give up my life Safety An illusion above all It's never okay Always a lonely fight Life is just friendly fire And I'm always the last one alive |