The Lonely

The Lonely




Where am I and what am I doing? It is like I don't even know where I am going in life. The shortness of breath and the gut-wrenching pain the surges in my stomach as it tightens up. It is like i fear what might be and not knowing what is.

I see the world as a lonely place of hate and despair as if the cares are all gone. I want this feeling to go away, and I want to feel the love. How is it that the world is full of people, but I feel like I am the only one as if not to be seen or heard. It is like a fire that burns with a wick that cannot be blown out. What are these flames that burn so hot and why must it be this way? The feeling is so strong that all I want to do is run and hide.

I am stuck in my thoughts as they eat away at my brain causing holes as big as a watermelon leaving the danger that creeps in. What is this feeling that I am feeling and why is it so strong? As the lonely nights sings it song of sorrow and pain I lay here awake and cry my tears. What a lonely feeling that I could ever feel. Lonely to me is the thoughts that seep in and take over your soul leaving wreckage and rubble behind when it is done.

I must get up and walk around as i feel if I lay here, I have buried myself in a grave of tear drops and pain. Pacing back and forth as not to panic the loneliness is sinking in, I feel like a ghost. The horror I see and the shit that is done why am i feeling lonely this is no longer fun. Eating more and more on my thoughts I wonder if anyone is there. Can they hear me? I am not sure but surely am scared.

I don't want this feeling I want it to go away. Where is everyone and why aren't they here? The loneliness takes over and I feel my heart drop to the pits of the ocean the deep dark thoughts. What once was is no longer there, my happiness has turned into the dark fear.

I feel lonely almost all the time as if I am the only one dealing with what i have been through. Does anyone even understand? Can they relate to me and where I have been? It feels like I am on a dark lonely street, with the lights that have gone out and the voices in the distance. I see what is not there and fight with them day to day not knowing what they might say. My life is my own and you need to go I can't handle the thought of you taking over every single piece of my body. It is like i am a puppet one you can control. Why am i so lonely? Will I ever know?

Being lonely is the fear of not being with the world and far off away from everyone. It is a feeling that most people suffer from because of the misunderstanding that one is going through. Us as humans tend to reject those who are not in the right state of mind because we feel as if that isn't normal and there is something severely wrong with that person. This will in the end make people feel lonely and insecure about who they are as a person. I know that I get lonely and have that feeling of being lonely a lot in life. It is almost like no one understands that pain and hurt that I have been through. Sometimes i feel shut out from the world and not heard. This tends to make me feel very angry and want to scream and shout. We are people all have a voice that needs to be heard whether it is by one person or many.

Lonely can be the feeling of being lost and neglected. It is one of the most painful feelings to have going through life. It only takes one person to lend an ear for listening to what one has to say. By reaching out to those in need it could help with their feeling and make a world of difference. We all should interact and try to take the time to understand what is going on in someone's life. There are too many people dying from suicide now a days because of the person not feeling like they are worth anything. It is a lot of people's need to want to be that perfect person and not make any mistakes. In society today that is what and how they portray people to be. This makes people feel insecure about themselves and like they can't reach out to someone when they need the help. It is also the judgement that people pass apoun people and instead of getting to know the person because they are different, they just throw them away like they are a piece of trash.

So, I am hoping and praying that we all can take the time to just get to know someone, even if they are way different than you are. Let's help people and cut down the suicides in the world. Reach out to those that you know need help and at least say hi. You never know how that will affect a person's day and how it will truly make them feel. I myself have felt this way and have felt like I had no one for the longest time. I felt shut off from the world because instead of someone taking the time to get to know me as a person, they passed judgement and decided that they didn't want anything to do with me because I was different. That cut me so bad, and it made me not want to be alive anymore because of how they looked at me. Everyone needs to realize that we are only humans, and we all make mistakes, most of which we cannot undo or fix. In all reality it is picking yourself up and working harder to better the things in your life. No one is perfect and that is what people need to understand.

The more we are heard and excepted the way we are the less lonely someone is going to feel. We are on this earth to love one another not to hate and fight with each other. Even though you may not truly agree with what one is doing you can always make that effort to help guide them in the direction that is more positive and less negative. I know i don't want to feel lonely and have a hard time waking up and getting out of bed in the morning. So, that is why I try to reach out to people and at least say hi and ask how they are doing.

Lonely is out and love is in. Keep safe and remember you aren't alone in things that you are dealing with.