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Life after death |
Death may mark the end of eras, ages, and life stages, but it also marks the beginning of new journeys and the rediscovery of what may have been lost along the way |
Waves caress the shore Gently soothing the rough sand Twilight descending --- The luminous moon Nestled beneath gentle wings Eyes shining silver --- The cage breaks open She sings for all our children Her heart is open |
The panic rises from my chest Encasing my throat Thin bony fingers encircle my neck and choke me They cut off the blood flow from my heart so my head cannot think. Existing in a separate time and place Divided into uncertainty and I know I'm waiting To make myself whole again. Like an incomplete circle, I am unbalanced. The world keeps spinning But I am stationary Frozen in place and rooted in trauma I'm still here. Deep in your soul The me that has always been. I'm here. I'm waiting to be accepted. I'm waiting for you To accept me unapologetically. With beauty and grace. We will float above the clouds Together. |
What is it you hope to gain By watching others every move By invading the minds and hearts of innocents. What do you think the end game is The result of your sordid schemes There is no hope left in here. No emotion My soul you took and ripped into pieces Just shards for me to pick up But first, I have to find them all. So despondent - my insides are dead. Blackened and charred from the fires you lit. The gas you poured down my throat; Choking me, until I had no more breath Void - just empty nothingness No escape. There is no way out of this place. They surround me now, dark and twisted, hollow, empty eyes. Crooked fingers - cold as ice. They burn my skin. Please help me Lord. I know not what I do anymore. I don't even know myself. Who am I now, but a walking zombie. Just a shadow of a shell now. Will I ever be whole again. Whole and complete. Trinity. Hold on. All will come full circle. Stay with me. Remember where you came from. |
Destiny manifests itself now. You can feel the waves crashing up against you. A new energy flowing your way that will light your soul up. Take it to a new peaceful place of being where nothing can harm you unless you so choose to allow it. There is a calm breeze blowing. Ready to caress your weary heart and mind and wash away all your pain and sorrow. It's time to let go of the old and embrace the new. There is joy coming your way that will fill you up if you allow it in. No regrets, no complaints - just complete acceptance. The clouds will part and darkness will be erased. Replaced by light. The light from that glimmer of hope you held so close and dear to your heart for so long. The hope kept you going. Hope for a better life. A more fulfilling way of being. A calm centre where nothing can interrupt the gentle feeling of this new life. This new life full of wondrous joy and happiness. There is nothing that I want more than this new start. This new beginning. Leave the past behind with all the shadows and embrace the future. The future where I belong. The future I have worked so hard for. The endless possibilities in this new ocean I am swimming in. The waves lap gently upon my skin and cleanse all negativity within. Calming the anxiousness and the fears I have carried for so long. Letting the joy overcome the suffering I have held for so long. The endless waves will carry me to where I need to go. There is only room for those things I choose to allow in. Let this be my way of leaving the darkness and pain and sadness in the past. Where it belongs. There is no place for it here anymore. There is only light. Warm white light surrounding me with protective energy. A rainbow erupts overhead, and I am bathed in beauty. It will last an eternity if I allow it. An eternity will take me wherever I need it to go. I am so happy and at peace. I just want to wrap myself in this blanket of happiness and enjoy the moment. This moment is what is true and what is important. Stay in this moment of light and warmth. Bask in the glow. Stay here and realize your true potential. This is all that matters in the end. You and your great love for the creator and the world around you. Take care of yourself - forever and always. Keep true to yourself. Let no one in who isn't safe, who doesn't resonate truly with you. Know yourself and you will stay free. Free to be a bird soaring through the sky. You will know only freedom. Freedom and Joy. Peace and Love. |
Still pondering this existence and swirling in the uncertainties of my next step forward. Never to be truly accepted seems to be the theme of my life no matter where I am or who I am surrounded by. Family, I suppose, is the one truth. The one constant slowly ebbing away. There are so few left I hold my memories close to my heart. The two I held dearest are just faint lights in my mind now. My heart is heavy with sorrow. I am unsure how it heals. Perhaps it never does. The scars and pain make it harder, but also more resistant to the onslaught of neverending arrows. Poison-tipped, fiery arrows that shock you like lightning bolts out of a thunderous rage being shouted out at you by the thoughts of others. Will it ever end? That rage seems to be directed towards me, but is it all just in my head? I am not sure anymore what is real and what I just imagine in my head. Not sure that imagination is necessarily a detriment, but I don't know how many others can understand the depths of my mind and not judge it To be just another crazy person. A misguided woman. I know who I am, but I have tried to present an image more acceptable - to the world - to society - to the people I am surrounded by. I think, I know I can just be myself, but it takes great strength in the face of others who would love to bring me down and crush me just so they can feel better. Just because they don't know how to just be. Be one with the world. Be one with others. Allow the feelings to swirl around, take over for awhile. Just to remove yourself from your own torturous mind. Be at peace. Like a diamond washing away to the sea depths. Waiting to be cleansed by the salt and rough water. Only to be thrown aside by the waves |
A light has gone out and now, I am left in the darkness. Floundering around without a guide. I am alone in this place With no emotions And no thoughts. Completely empty. You cannot guide me out of this abyss, But I must find myself And pull my own spirit out. It is still there - Just a tiny spark to find. Just one last minute bit Of hope That will shine brightly again. Keep your faith close at hand As it will fill you up once again, In time. |
Life seems so pointless at times and other times it seems full of possibilities. Which way will I wake up and feel tomorrow? Will I feel like there is a never ending abyss waiting to take me down or will I feel like I can take on new challenges? Will I feel full of hope of full of sadness? I'm not sure when this uncertainty will end, but hopefully I can shake the darkness off and move forward with confidence. How long did I live feeling like I had to make things work with what I had instead of living for what I truly wanted? How long did I deny myself feelings and deny myself the things I truly enjoyed and wanted in life? I don't want to be what someone else wants me to be any longer. I just want to be the me I am meant to be. The one who loves getting lost in stories, video games, and fantasy worlds. Who loves art and creativity. Who sees colour and life in music. Who feels the music in their veins. The one who wants to feel free to be herself and not worry about what anyone else thinks about who she is or how she presents herself. I want to be full of childlike wonder and amazement for the world around me. Sit and stare at the sky and the clouds and see the shapes and patterns and figures that take me away with them. I want to get lost in the moment and forget everything else that is happening around me. I want to feel deeply - truly feel the world around me. Feel the vibrations in the air. Feel the dream-like state that I crave is okay to get lost in when I am alone or surrounded by people. Know that the spirit in my is real. Know that the spirit is alive and real. |