Fragile

Fragile
Chapter 1:

People say that whenever you feel sadness or anger you should vent these feelings out on a piece of paper so you can feel better, but for me, I just feel bitter. Have you ever thought about your cause of sadness or anger when you lay down on your bed to stare at the roof or when you cry yourself out? Of Course, whether it is a family member, friends, work, or money problems all of these are stressing you and hindering the life you have. As for my personal experience, these are all the problems I have tried to endure. Whenever I get annoyed by the tiniest things my parents say I’m sensitive, but in truth I’m just trying to vent my anger against this world. “Happiness” is a simple word, but it's so hard to achieve. However, the word “Sadness” is filled in this world. It’s funny how people have only “Happy moments” but most days they say, “I have been struggling for years”. Adults and children all have different viewpoints of this world, but the only viewpoint that everyone agrees with is world cruelty. In recent years even children can sense the cruelty of this world. This world has 365 days a year but every second of these days you can’t return it. You regret, regret, regret, and regret some moments, days, or years of what you spent your time with. This is the truth; you just can’t help it. Human beings are the most fragile creatures in this world. Glass can shatter if you throw it on the floor and if you step on it you may bleed. This is the human heart, it shatters, and you feel like you're bleeding your regrets out but in truth, it's mind manipulation. Yes, human hearts shatter and bleed by words. Words are worse than hitting someone. Words are like a knife to the heart. One word can make a person think of it in a lifetime. When feeling all these mixed emotions you try to vent it out to a friend or your parents, but they tell you to stop being sensitive or tell you this is how the world works, leaving you with the feeling of emptiness. Emptiness is weird; it's like locking your feelings in a pitch-black room with yourself in it. In this locked room, you cry, shout, and struggle for help but no one can hear you. You can see people and hear them, but they have closed their eyes and ears leaving you alone in the pitch-black room. No one helps you out of this darkness, but people always come to you for their problems, and you just end up hearing them and helping them out. People expect from you everything, but they expect me to ask for nothing. At this moment you try to run, run, run, and run till you get tired. Trying to vent these emotions you lock yourself in a room closing your mouth and cry so that no one can hear you. The very next day you spend your day with a fake smile while from the inside everything is broken. Every day you smile, yet at the end of the day you cry, wondering when this misery will end. Before you know it, you will spend the rest of your life in this misery, so you don’t get labeled as spoiled or sensitive.

Thank You
Written by: Diva