In My World

Alone with my thoughts

I sit all alone, in my world made for me,
I put all my feelings, where no one can see.
My heart is locked, and there is no key,
what's in it will stay between God and me.
I wonder what dreams will come in the night,
I pray I'm not overcome with fright.
Millions of thoughts go through my head,
mostly about what others have done or said.
I think of ways to not think at all,
knowing that one day, that will be my downfall.
Wondering hopelessly around a God forsaken land,
Drifting endlessly to wherever I can.
Who can I turn to in such an empty place?
Where will I find that truely honest face?
My ambitions stick with me, though I put them on hold,
and my future dreams are more precious than gold.
I patiently await my escape from here,
but I'll live everyday as if the end were near.
I compose myself once again to face another day,
until I'm finally free to just fly away.