Why? Wasn’t I Enough..

Questionable or a statement… still remains why?

Why Wasn’t I Enough?

Why wasn’t I enough
when I gave you more than anyone else ever dared to?

I gave you patience
when your temper burned the room thin.
I gave you softness
when your words came out like slammed doors.
I gave you loyalty
while you flirted with the idea of losing me.

I handed you my forgiveness
before you even learned to apologize.
I watered the parts of you
that refused to grow.
I stood guard at your worst
and called it love.

I gave you the kind of devotion
people write songs about
but never actually offer.
I bent until my backbone
felt like a question mark.

And still—
you looked past me
like I was background noise
to your chaos.

So tell me,
what more could I have given
without disappearing completely?

Maybe I wasn’t the problem.
Maybe I was too much light
for someone
who only knew how to live
in the dark.

And maybe
being “not enough” for you
was the first sign
I was finally
too much
to lose myself again.