Black Hole

Black Hole

beating fast in my chest
my heart is in shock
for it has happened again
I fall to my pillow
with tears of pity and shame
for I was stupid once again

gullable and lovesick am I
trapped in a world of dependency
a dangerous reality that must be broken
Pounding and Pounding, it will no cease
this is the end of my sweet reality
for fairy tales really are fictional

stubborn and think-headed
passive and optimistic
to the point of a death wish
how many times must it happen
before I face reality?
too many times to keep me alive

into a black hole I fall, deeper and deeper
into my sad state of denial
my mind is spinning, my heart is dying
I cry out for help but no one hears
I continue to fall until I hit the bottom
and there is silence