Why?

Something I wrote when I started to fall for a player.

As I sit here alone in my own lil' world
I ask myself why do I care
Could it be I am starting to fall
For something that will never be there
A player at heart, a player for life
Why can't I just walk away?
Why do you have this control over me?
Why do I want you to stay?
I ask myself these questions again and again
Each time the answers are unfound
I wish I could leave and never look back
But I feel as if I am bound
I don't want you to touch me
Yet I long to taste your kiss
I wish I could forget the pleasure
I wish just once I could resist
But I can't let go of these thoughts of you
I can't walk away and leave
So I am asking you to do this now
Tell me it's over, tell me I'm free
Free from all these thoughts of you
Thoughts that will hurt too much
Free to move on and find true love
And finally forget your touch

5-16-01