Closed In

I wrote this poem after a long searching and analysis of myself.Here's the rusults.

Closed In

Fake smiles
Cramp my face
Lost emotions
On a horse I chase

I haven't felt anything
Real for years
It's all an illusion
I'm too closed in

Life goes by
Before my eyes
Thoughts and feelings
Flee before me

Hide before
I think them
Or feel them

Nothing is real
Reality is nothing
Life isn't real
Reality isn't life

I try to open up
Let it out
But I can't
I'm too closed in

I haven't felt anything
Real for years
Its all an illusion
I'm too closed in

Closed in
Like a box
Inside my emotion is tightly locked
But where is the key
If I don't have it
Who does?