Okay...so... it's Sat 19th March, 2011. So far in 2011: Found out he lied to me, got first kiss from Jake, school camp/disco/other school stuff, done a couple displays, kept my promise (even though he's broken all of his), been called too many names and bullied even more, made someone feel loved, said yes to his proposal (XD), been jealous and hurt, been worried and suspicious, kissed in rain, met his immediate family, been ignored, been noticed, considered runnning away, been confused, + more |
I'm scared. I don't think I can sit with you when school starts. It hurts. But not how you think. It hurts because you have him. Here. Always. And I have to be satisfied with words on a screen and a photo. And you can visit anytime. I have to organise things. And usually it's stuffed up anyway. Please understand. I don't want to see him act the way he did when he was with me. I just want my own to be here with me. Maybe then I would be able to stop worrying. I need him here. |
Ummm.... Idk what to do? We had such a great time. You made me happy again. But I miss you. You've gone back home now. I just want you back. What am I going to do for the rest of the hols? I can tell I'm never gonna concentrate in school. |
I wonder if anyone checks this NB anymore. Well.. I don't wanna write this on my normal port... I have trrchtillomania but nobody would believe me if i told them :S I have also not been eating properly and when I do eat I get major stomach pains from not eating properly... and it feels good :S Let me get out of this crap I'm starting... |