Why Did I Say No?

Something I was thinking about and I had to get it out of my system.

You brought it up a while ago,
but there were no rewards to show.

At first I just shrugged off the feeling.
I had no idea with what I was dealing.

I don't know why I turned you down
And now you're not even around.

When I saw you with her,
my heart and mind were unsure

Now that its been brought up anew,
"no" seemed to be my only clue

Why my feelings must I withhold.
You're the only person I've ever showed

Will these feelings ever change for you?
I'm not sure what else I can do.

"We're at different places in our lives"
is nothing more than inventive lies.

My mind always wanders to our exchange
and to how much things have changed.

I told you I just wanted to be friends,
but now I feel that I will never make amends.