Bittersweet

My heart is mine again, at last
and yet, how bittersweet
For love was quite a treat, yet passed
So cold now when we meet
Oh true the torture love was, yet
I find I miss it now
For of the feeling, hard forget
It taunts me when he smiles

On summer days, through winter frost
my love surpassed them all
But yet I've paid prodigious cost
I'm broken from my fall
and even though he caused me pain
I'd never change the past
Yet I shall never love again
and I'd thought love would last

How subtle twas the torture, true
a retribution, soft
And yet my hopes were raised all through
e'en though the pain I bought
Oh arms of solitude, embrace
and yet from them, decline
For all is written on his face
the loss: a love once mine

My heart belongs to me again
it beats for me once more
Yet in the gain, I lost a friend
the one I'd once adored
And he is happy, off somewhere
while I am incomplete
When love left swift, it left me bare
I'm free, it's bittersweet