control

my life, one big dream
not my dream!
i lived the way they wanted.
forgeting my dreams!
never free to express myself.
waiting for someone to free me of this life.
wanting to leave it all behind.
they will never let me go.
their fear of not being in control, losing their grip.
i dont belong in their world.
will they ever see that?
i want my own life!
will they will they ever let me?
i tried to make them happy,
i tried to fit in.
they never understood me,
i could never understand them.
why did they have to be so mean?
did they think the same of me?
maybe if we talked about it,
none of this confusion would have lead to their disappontment in me.
i should have let them be in control of me life