For Someone

Do you ever think we talk too much?
That we both spend too much time
Worrying what the other will think
About our special rhyme
Maybe it’s just me; I’m not so sure you care
I mean, why should you anyway?
It’s not like I’m always there;
Standing behind you, in your long shadow
Mourning over you
When you’ve gone away.

Others seem suspicious
When we talk and laugh
Sometimes they join in with us
And other times they’ve had enough
Do you think that we spend too much time together?
Do I worry too much about things?
Do you really see nothing but friendship?
Nothing else, no more?

But then why to you give me that look
When I decide to do traverse afar
Leaving you in the doorway
Alone, a darkened star.

Why do you care when I leave you?
And why don’t you follow when I go?
Do you ever wonder what will happen?
The day I don’t return?
When I wonder, I begin to worry,
Will we drift apart?
I shouldn’t be in so much of a hurry,
To leave this dusty old town,
But when I think of the future,
Nothing here is written down.

So why can’t you say what you’re thinking?
Sometimes I don’t think that you care.
But then when I’m broken and crying,
Somehow, you’re always there.
You’re the trusty shadow behind me,
Always ready to make me laugh
You’re the candle through my darkness
Always ready to save my life.
You’re the cheese to my cake,
The ice to my cream,
There’s nothing I would change about you,
Nothing at all, it would seem.

I know how I see you, but not how you see me,
Am I at all important to you?
Am I at all as irreplaceable
As you are to me?
If I am then why do you do this?
And make me feel this way?
Make me write long poems
That take up more than a page

My rhyming messing up, my timing’s really off,
But I don’t care, I’m almost through,
With what I have to say.

I lied to someone today,
About how I feel about you
Now I wish I hadn’t,
Now I wish I’d been true.
I wish I’d said the things
I’ve told you so many times
I still don’t think you believe me
Because of all the old lies.

If I hadn’t lied, where would we be?
So far apart?
If I hadn’t lied I wouldn’t be here,
Spilling this blackened heart.

Nothing is so important
As making you understand
How I feel about you
Is not just contraband.

I wish I could tell you in person
And not just through notes and mail
But ever time I try
Someone else is there
Ready to judge, ready to pry
And steal this secret of mine
But a secret it must remain
Until you understand, valentine.
You must understand my mindset,
And how my heart does soar
Whenever you’re close or around me
And my eyes begin to pour
Sour tears of regret,
Bitter tears of sorrow,
Angry tears of resentment
And frightened tears of tomorrow.

I don’t want to drift and float
Off to distant lands
At least not without you with me
My one and only, true best friend.
I want to stay this way forever,
The way we are just now
But without this awkward feeling
Deep in mine heart of shadow,
I’ve tried I really have, to forget these feelings of mine
So once I again I must ask…

Do we spend too much time together?
Really dear I must know
Because this heart of mine won’t listen
Unless you’re nowhere near.
So if we don’t then say it,
I doubt much will change
If we do then scream it,
It won’t be all that strange.
Just wrench my feelings from my chest,
And toss them on the ground.
Stamp them to the dust
Crush them into the grime.

Please dearest, it’s only mercy,
To do me this final right.

So sorrowfully I end this
So mournfully I say
I love you dearest, truly,
Now,
Forever,
Never,
Today.