Fall Right Through

Teeth sinking into pale flesh-the thin line drawn between us, is blurred
and once again, I, become yours
There's a beauty in the way we dance around the truth-we never really belonged to one another, never really loved eachother
You give into your weakness as you dial my phone number-beg me to fall backwards w/you, fall into a facade we could fall right through.
Instead i tell you to fall on your knees-i wanna hear you say please, i wanna see you humble yourself before me, i want you to know that i abhor you
I want you to be mine for the taking this time around-only for you to find, you're not what i want, not what i want this time
Instead i tell you what you wanna hear-'aww, baby, you know that i want you, know that i need you-so go ahead, come on over and lemme, let me please you'.
And you come walking through my door- the very one you walked out before, you seem so sure of yourself as you jump into my bed & i start to go crazy from the shit
    in my head
I want to vomit-think i want to vomit on you, but i don't
Silently i oblige as i take off my clothes
i start to want to die the second your skin touches mine-- & my gag reflex makes itself known, when your hand reaches the cunt that's no longer my own
i feel so degraded as you start to penetrate me-reminds me how it felt, to be raped
but this time i gave my consent-for you to give into your selfish intent
i can feel the tears pushing at the backs of my eyes and I want to cry, once again, but i won't.
We both know we've been here before--- distilling our whole lives down to our sin
We both know i should show you the door- but i don't.
We can't make excuses for the games that we play-
and I reamin .......silent.........
as you fuck me.
because there's nothing left to say.