My Insanity

My life is a jungle with enemies on all sides,
I needing a secret refuge with  small place to hide.
Therapist says; "You can not go on living this way",
Antisocial and over-phobic is no way to stay.

I need to learn to rewire my broken down brain,
To let go of the negative thoughts making me insane.
I've spent a lifetime running in panic and sheer fear,
From all my experiences filling me with dark tears.

My family says it's time to stop running; it's so clear,
To fight the inner demons ransoming my thoughts so near.
Perhaps they're true and right in many of their own ways,
They forget that it's hard to be happy day and day.

I love my family dearly:  that they'll never change,
Even when we are not thinking within the same range.
Asking my family for help before, feels as if I'm drowning,
I wake up each day to struggle from crying and frowning.

The end of the day is almost upon the dark night,
It is now for the nightmares, exposed in full moonlight.
Not figments of the demented imagination,
Just the past sneaking up on me again and again.