Unaware

“Unaware” By: James Mills
All I can do is just sit in my chair slumped and stare
As everything is going on around me I am unaware
It’s almost as if I was blind
Can’t pay attention, can’t get things off my mind
All I’ve been able to think about is you
After you told me those things I wish there was something I could do
The time when you need me the most
I can’t do anything as if I was a ghost
Stuck up here 500 miles away filled with anxiety and despair
I’d give almost anything just to be down there
Taking care of you and holding you tight
Then I’d know everything would be all right
Not knowing what’s going on makes me want to smother my face into my bed
My thoughts of what could be going on is like a disease spreading through my head
I run my hand through my hair as I try to keep my head straight
The tension and stress growing is becoming far too great
But no matter what I do nothing works as my nervousness and anxiety begins to grow
I can’t do anything this I know
Not being able to even talk to you is really rough
I know just hearing your voice would be assuring enough
It would settle me down and put me in my place
My mind would settle down to a slower pace
Talking with you I would have a better understanding of what’s going on
Hopefully then most of my anxiety would be gone
But until I talk to you and know what’s going on and how you are
Seems like the distance between me and you is way to far