Embedded memories

I have memories from my past.
And I have a feeling they will last
As a plague that never let be …
The dark marks, the scratches and welts
Burn as my soul is deep….
Memory embedded and cold
I wish to let it go…
Your eyes looked as black shadows
Something that haunts to sleep at night
You’re sorry’s and begging pleas…
Won’t get anything out of my silence
A heavy weight upon my shoulders
Rainstorms to tree leafs…
Nothing but to keep me rooted in this chaotic mess I see
Those hands that keep on spreading pain
How do I even explain?...
Tie me down…
Hold me under..
Suffocate me…
Make me bleed.
Hurry and get it over with..
Worried? Think you might succeed?..