Afraid

So afraid to hurt the only one
Only one who has loved
Loved me enough
Enough for me to feel obligated to stay
Stay when I know
Know that my swear to god happiness
Happiness that will never be when with him
Him who I love
Love more the object of being in love then actually
Actually in him himself or us
Us which on the outside seems
Seems like the perfect couple
Couple who struggles to be
Be one-one mind-one soul-one being
Being best friends makes me struggle
Struggle in telling you that I’m leaving
Leaving you all alone-and don’t try
Try to stop the inevitable because we
We were meant to be but only
Only soul mates and best friends-the true
Truest it could be
I can’t hurt him, but I can’t love
Love him the way he deserves
Deserves so much more then me being afraid.