Over

How do I meet? How do I speak? How do I greet? How do I sing?What does this mean? Why do you care? How do i express? How do i live? What must I do? Will this end? If so how?

I'm just so confused.

How do I find it? How do i see? How do i fear? How am I lost? Why am I cold? Why is my world dark? Where can I go? How do I show? How can this be? What am I to be? How do i work? How do i feel?

It's all a mystery.

Listen to my heart and you'll hear me scream, "Help me." Yet I'm to far to help. I'm not on Earth. I'm not in heaven, I'm not in hell. I'm in this dark world, lost to all. Lost forever.  I was told to hang on, yet I'm falling. Where's this to go? I shall know soon enough, but still there's more.

This is the only beginning.

Why am I shattered? Why must I hide? What's hidden inside? Why am I to cry? Why so many questions? Why are there no answers? Do I stare into space? Or are you not there? Can you hear me? Can you see me? Will you Help me?

But why?

I am hanging on with little strength. I'm losing my grip, but is this really over? I feel myself dying. Every step you take back, I feel myself tearing apart. Its as if a hand of god has smacked me. This pain is real, but everything doesn't seem real. In a way I need you.

It was you.

You taught me to speak, To open up and share my troubles. You taught me to trust, yet you leave. You were the one who read me. The one who saved me. I changed because of you. Now you up and leave me, letting me hang here to die. Hoping for someone to help, and maybe your return.

You won't come, will you?

I barely see the light. I know you have gone. I can't trust a soul, because of what you've done. My eyes water now, thinking of the past. I soon realize, it wasn't to last. Yet I hoped it would. I feel my self let go. But someone grabs my hand, but it's not your's. The hand feels nice, yet I still want you.

And he enters..

He pulls me up. Trying to help me, not knowing how I got there. I am in a daze. I'm afraid. I don't want another you. I'm glad to be on ground, but is he the one? I won't know. I still can't let go.I don't think i ever will. I'll try to make this one work, even after you let go. My heart still races. My mind still stutters. I can't even hear my voice, as i speak your name one last time.

And today..

Today is a new day, but I still think of you. Am I supposed to love again? If so, How do I forget you? I still dream of you and I can see those words. My heart's now closed, and no one can enter. People can try, but none will succeed. All because it was you had freed me. I may be thankful, but I'm still very hurt. I long for your touch, but you are too far away.

Before I close...

I thought I'd let you know. That I still see you. My eyes close and you are there. I haven't dated since you. I haven't smiled, yet I ty. I'm on safe ground, for know. But it's shaking under me. It's going to give way. Unless I can find another. You shall be far away, but in my thoughts. Now I must find someone to talk to. To laugh and smile. Will I find them? Will they save me?

Last...

Will I ever be saved? Will i ever love? Will you ever return? Will I receive love? Now that I must go, I must say...

It's OVER!