Memory

The description of having a vague memory of a memory not fully embraced.

I sat here three weeks ago doing the same thing
Yet I cannot quite remember the details

I had quite an ordeal several months ago
But I am unsure about its ending

Year ago I had the experience of a lifetime
And I don’t recall what happened

Faded memory
I try
I really do
But it fails, to bring back the substantial
I remember, my emotions
I enjoy them
If the memories were to return
I’m sure I’d be twice as happy
Twice as overwhelmed

My memories never do return
And I have no one to help me piece together these recollections
So I live with gaps in my life
And being happy, angry, sad
At various times for reasons and purposes I don’t know