Time To Say Goodbye

It's time to say goodbye to the old memories...

the late nights laying wide awake,

driving myself insane with all the random thoughts.

Each night as I lie in bed...

My mind is constantly searching for answers to questions,

that maybe I just don't need the answers to.

Life is hard.

Love is cruel and unjust.

Each morning I awake in total disbelief...

that God has blessed me to live another day...

another day to wander the earth...

in search of answers that need not present themselves.

I've let others lead in my pursuit of happiness...

Many times I have been steered into winding paths of destruction,

pain and suffering...

I'm old enough now to take my own path.

Start anew.

I'm not going to let others ruin me.

I'm not going to retrace my footsteps to salvage past damage.

What's done is done...

and there's nothing I can do.

So why worry?

Why contemplate old feelings, desires, and thoughts...

When all I'm thinking about is the past.

I need to concentrate on my future...

my passions and desires...

For I am the one who has to live this life.

No one else.

I am me.

You are you.

And it's about time I sit back and embrace what I have.

I'm not the best looking guy,

but I'm honest.

I'm not the nicest guy on the planet,

but I'm a realist.

While others see the world in blurred mirrors.

I see it for what it really is.

A world full of racism, relgious scrutiny, and lies.

My vision of the world is clear.

And it's time to say goodbye to all those who've put me down.

When my life was at the lowest of the low..

You drove my head into the water until I drowned.

And for that I wish you all eternal damnation.

Let my soul fly free of all distractions and temptations.

For now, it's time to say goodbye to the new me and back to the old me.

I was much happier when I was truly me.