Alone

Loved, though abandoned
My life is unjust
The sadness rips through me
Though I do what I must
To keep my heart beating
My lungs taking air
Each day is more painful
It just doesn't seem fair
I don't know my purpose
Or why I exist
If God took me tomorrow
Would I even be missed?
These walls do not speak to me
They echo my cries
Of the emptiness and sorrow
A heart feels as it dies.
This place, filled with promise
Once made my heart swell
It brought hope, 'til that day
Now this place is my hell
How did I end up here all by myself?
What have I done to be placed on a shelf?
Haven't I been loving, and patient, and sweet?
I'd much rather perish than accept this defeat.
I don't know my demise
I can't clearly see
The rest of the story
Or what will be
And if I'm not here
I guess I'll never know
So I'll hang on a while more
I don't want to let go.

When I feel like I'm crumbling
I'll just go for a drive
And battle the demons
I barely survive
They have not yet beat me
Though relentless and strong
Because love is my armour
And I've loved along.