A Sickening Tragedy

THE fear
The guilt
Slowly eats at my soul
For I have done something
Something so horrible
No creature should ever know

For they will come for me
I know they will
They will travel to the deepest darkest part of hell
To seek revenge
The revenge of their PAIN

To have seen what I've seen
To have done what I've done
The misery eats at my heart and soul
Begging me to end this miserable existance
Begging OF me to stop the dreading
To stop the fear

It will take much more than what anyone
No what EVERYONE would give up to stop
The dark hunger that burns inside of me
The raging desire to do it again
I know I wouldn't survive this again

When I close my eyes to rest
I hear voices
The voices of those who scream out in the night
The SCREAMS of sheer terror warn me
Of what lies beyond

THAT what lies beyond this existence
Beyond knowledge
Beyond light
They will find me

Even in death
They will come
But the darkness of my desire grows stronger
And the light slowly fades into NOTHING

It will push me over the edge
And I will never be the same
Sanity is a fine line
Either side and I WILL go crazy
A crazy bloodthirsty rage
But oh the voices

Will they EVER stop
Their unrelenting attack
On my Sanity?
But my desire to do it again screams out at me
Do it
You know you want to

I am a changed person
Changed in a good way?
I don't know
Will anyone ever know?
I'm hungry to do it again
It will never STOP

I crave that feeling
That smell
That sound
THE sight
It's all so darkly beautiful
So amazing
So beautiful and awe inspiring

It burns so deep
You feel it
It shakes your very core
You were blindsighted
By the PAIN

The pain that was CAUSED
By things unseen

BY things unsaid
It hurts
It burns and stings
It always stings
Everyday of your life

THOSE feelings
You've felt it
As have I

The fear BEHIND your eyes
Gives you away everytime
You see me

BARS on my window
Locks in my doors
I could've saved you
But I didn't
And that fear
That Guilt
Slowly eats at my soul
For I have done something
Something so horrible
No creature should ever know