I Ran Long....

i ran long chasing this small life.........
daughter, sister, friend or a wife?
bygone nights and bygone days ,
i tried to live in many ways.
with clustered hearts n empty spaces,
i tried to fit in many places.
teachers i met , taught me much!
what life could be in a closer touch.
some incomplete realations & complete friends,
some changing policies & tricky trends.
i chase and chose the unfamiliar one,
the way to lead me from nothing to none!
the window i opened closed my heart,
to let me breathe in worldly art.
a locked heart and a bothered mind,
scrutinizing religion to justify its kind.
a kind bossom with a cruel heart,
gives me pain in every part.
i stood alone while gazing the night,
standing in dark and chasing the light.
i looked back to notice the path,
and saw myself still standing in past.
perplexed, i turned to find ahead,
a ray of hope to stir the dead.
whimsical heart to envision the future,
dies to learn itself a failure.