Word Vomit

Lying here breathing feels like a chore.
These walls are closing in, but I don't care.
A certain kind of apathy...
Losing all senses, reality is out of my control.
Scared of the future,
Frightened of the past,
Knowing that everything I once knew is gone
And yet everything I will come to know is unknown.
A fear of the dark,
But what's hiding in the light?
Don't shut me out.
I'm already so alone.
You're so blind.
I try my best to save you,
And yet every day fades away,
With nothing...

Such sadness floods in.
I can't face these tomorrows alone.
They'll be just like today,
More problems I can't face.
Your light,
I'm trapped inside myself.
Our memories holding us prisoners.
A never ending time warp,
Some kind of sick, twisted rut.
You run away,
I'm here to stay.
Confused and dazed,
Everywhere I go, I wonder.
I feel this blood pulsing through my veins
Warm and slow, reminding me I'm alive,
Reminding me of you...