SOS Help me

Life. Life really doesnt want me. Its trying to prevent me from writing down my story. Im crying right now. This aint a story or an essay. This a message saying help me!!!! My life has ended twice. What do I mean? I mean I died twice and been reincarnated twice as well. Except the second time GOD let me have my old body and memories so its like it never happened. But its true. Another thing is my stupid sixth sense abilities. I can see the future and ghosts. And I hate it because this girl that I love, she loved me until she found out about this. Now she wont give me hugs or talk to me as much. I hate it!!!!! I feel like a freak. Never has life given me the one thing I truly wanted. Someone to love and accept me for who I truly am. But even I consider myself a freak. This is all true. I wish I had the evidence but I dont. All I have are my words and memories. But that aint enough. I need peoples opinions. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!!!!!!!! GIVE ME SOME ADVICE!!!!!!!!!!!!