After I broke up with my girlfriend who cheated on me. I started writing... |
My mind races like a rocket in space, In a constant battle to change the expresions on my face. Even though it wont, I used to think I thought too much and I know too much to think I dont. If I drown will I float? If I failed would you gloat? When it rains will I always pain? When I love will my emotions drain? Im never sure of anything completely. Will my thoughts depleat me? Will my consciounce eat me? Do my feelings have meaning? Am I to continue dreaming? I'll never know the answers to all my questions, But I wont stop asking. I'll never know my emotions intensions, I'll probly keep on masking. Does anyone really know me? Do I even know myself? Is there anyone who can console me? Can I keep my feelings stealth? Am I worth the skin im in? Is there a battle I deserve to win? Will I die a noble death? Will anyone witness my last breath? Multiple answers I need to find, Will I unlock them within my mind? Or stumble upon them in due time? I suppose theres no use dwelling, Or thinking about things that arent worth telling, Think of words that arent worth spelling. What really matters? Things that brake and shatter? Thoughts that scatter? Feelings that get beaten and battered? Feeling good means feeling bad later, Feeling bad because I hate her, Lifes a skateboard, im the skater Will I fall? Will it hurt? When you call, will I feel like dirt? Does it matter in the end? If it doesnt will I still pretend? If it does will I mend? Will I allow my emotions to bend? Can I allow you to be my friend? I guess i'll have to wait and see, one day at a time. I'll just skate and let the thoughts race through my mind... |