forget

sorry for the way this is written
just sit back and listen
I am exposed in your mind
and yet forbidden in time
this I can see
is a failed misery
its how you make my mind play tricks on me
making me sound and act dumb
telling me there is something worth risking
when i had not one
...
chasing my tail
with what ever made it happen
just to be another has been
a notch, with a heart made of glass
powdered with what someone else has
...
i ran with a hope that i will find a fabled ending
and instead my place, i keep forgetting
i do not stand here with you nor have i ever
there was the intesion
but rules aren't for bending
...
with all the things on my mind
my poetry and art has suffered
...and so have i
i do not blame you
i do not blame anyone
for the things that i have done
...  ...  ...
i have made promises that i intend to keep
and for that i will continue
but i won't step too steep
...  ...  ...
im as unstructured as this poem
and no one will ever Know it
thats why i need to step back
before i blow it...