Vanity

You never know all about yourself
so when you're falling apart
It's hard to fit the pieces back
so you have to go back to the start

So much unhappiness I felt today
and secrets just can't revealed
my personality like a picasso piece
wrapped up and forever sealed

I love too fast, but is it love?
Or is it simply new lust
when preening my face in a mirror
and hitching up my bust

I hate jealousy yet feel it badly
when his glance is gone one second
competitvely I turn it on quick
and back to me he is beckoned

I used to feel alone in that place
vanity and how do I look today
and then found so many friends
who felt the exact same way

So irresponsible with finances
I just let some bills build in pile
out of sight and out of mind
crumpled in my full round file

I thought I would become an adult
as I hit eighteen and beyond
some magical fairy would come along
and wave her mystical wand

If you've noticed it's all me and I
I'm so sick of my worry of self
It is'nt done purposely with malice
I was on the bottom shelf

I blossomed and grew pretty
but with it came all the bad
making friends as selfish as me
and lost the dear ones I had

It's just a front and they dont know
that I hate the face that I see
thats why I take hours to make-up
the face that i make up for me