Suicide's Siren Call

During an abusive relationship, I contemplated the worst

This is when death’s call haunts me
When your tearstained face turns my way
And angry lyrics beat me to pieces
When it looks hopeless and devoid
When I can’t connect to you
When my choices harm you
And I can’t keep my tears at bay
I just want it all to go away
To leave me, just leave me behind
Love,
love,
It’s just a word isn’t it?
Even it can’t sum up my feelings
Or how hurt I am but don’t appear
I’ll just leave now, save you pain.
I assume that’d be best
It sure feels like it
Suicide’s Siren call
But that’s weak, right?
I have no clue.
Just pain