True Identity

True Identity

Every moment in life
Has a meaning
No one knows what the meaning is
Until that specific moment happens.

Every day I wonder
What’s the point in living?
No one would notice
If I suddenly went missing.

We all have our ups and downs
Being the youngest I found out somehow
No one liked me then
They sure as Hell don’t like me now.

I‘m on the ledge
Just looking down
No one screaming
Or trying to get me down.

I jump.
I fall.
I fly.
My problems
Are left behind.

Growing up
I was bullied all the time
Nobody understood
Why I cried.

If I live past tomorrow
It’ll be a miracle
If I was loved today
Would I still live to see tomorrow?

I don’t understand
Why the world hates me
I’m a pretty decent person
But no one tries to get me.

I have a slow mind
Dyslexia too
A few other learning disabilities too
How can you see right through?
Look close enough
You’ll see
I’m just like you.

I have feelings
I have a heart
Why am I here?
I don’t know anymore.

All I want
Is to be treated like the human-being I am
I want to cry
I want to scream
Most of all
I want to die.

I’m 21 years old
I’ve been bullied since I was 5
I don’t know why.

At home I’m treated poorly
In a sense
Nobody in the world gets me
That’s why I’m crying.

My heart hurts
My tears have dried
Would anyone miss me?
If I were to die tonight?

Would you notice?
If I sat by you in class
With all these marks
Upon my wrists.

I scream out for help
Or was that just in my head?
Nobody would believe me anyway
They’d just laugh and shrug it off instead.

No matter what you say
Or what you think
I’m still a human-being
And I’d like to be treated like one, thanks…