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Rated: E · Poetry · Personal · #1986526
My confession to myself which I thought I should put out into the world.
What I Really Am?


I portray a strong beautiful women


who is confidant of who she is.


Who doesn't need anybody to make her happy


and I tell myself independence is the only thing I need to focus on.


But behind closed doors


I suffocate in the isolation I created to protect myself.


Cowardice consumes me 


as I hide behind books and music.


I am indeterminately paranoid of making a fool at of myself


that I question my every word and action.


I refuse to look at the mirror too long


for I dread that I might see the petrified little girl that is inside me.


I don't define myself as beautiful 


only adequate within this world filled with true beauty.


Love is a dream that I have every night


only to desire that one day I will attain it.


And I am too afraid to open up to people,


will they understand the words that I am trying to get across?


I may be all those things but I hope that one day I won't be afraid anymore


and I know writing this down is the first step to achieve my dream.




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