Alone

Alone

Each night I find myself in the dark corner.
Hating myself, locking my heart and throwing away the key.
I sit there and wait, for the one...just someone.
No one ever comes...maybe no one will ever come.
I sit in the corner's shadow.
This shadow doesn't know I am here.
No one knows I am here.
The only thing that might know I am here is my tears.

It all began some time ago.
No friends, No love to share.
My heart was black...the core was rotten.
My happy days long forgotten...
My desire in life is simply just to die.
I'm sick of crying!
My parents, family, & classmates build the pain
Until I can't handle it anymore.
They look at me as a mistake, but just can't fix me.
They play it like they care for a while...
Then shut the door to me.
"Whatever happens, happens for the best" they always say.
I'm constantly beaten, forgotten, and cursed at.
The moments they give me compassion and love are all just a lie.

My father in heaven...why must I keep suffering?
Why have you made collecting tears my job?
How did I fail you? What did I do wrong to deserve this?
What can I do to please you? To please you all.
Make this stop.... just give me love or just a friend.
End this nightmare just for once...just for a minute
Stop making everything my opponent.
Why can't I just sit back and be relax and be happy?
Why must I always be hated? Forgotten? Why does it always end with tears?

I know you don't care...
Like my mother, father, my little brother.
You're toying with me, laughing from above watching me cry in agony.
I'll never get better in life.
Life is a game no one can beat.
It takes even longer to die when you're alone.
Although my life isn't much worse than others I do feel sometimes it's the worst.
I'll just sit here in the shadow of my corner...
In the corner's weeping shadow.