Peace

PEACE
A word , or is it much, more than that?
some think it's about flowers and tie dye;
running around protesting back in the day
standing up and daring to ask the word "why".

To others it is a little 'symbol' they keep close
to their heart, so much it would shatter if it were lost;
their faith is all placed in that little 'symbol' of life
instead, sad they do not know the true and real cost.

Some believe that peace is the quietness in a
place they have to travel to in some distant land;
think they have to go there, see a great Guru
becoming one with the world around us would be grand.

Oh what magical thinking that is, although in fairy tales
that type of thinking is handy and wishes do come true;
I am sure there are some who just leave their life to try
all that, but reality is that most can't, I can't, can you?

I have heard others say that peace to them is only
half hour in the tub without kids bothering them each day;
you laugh, but oh how that really is "heaven" to us moms
who have never locked the bathroom door, had peace that way!

There are other ways to describe peace too,
one word, yet, it can mean so differently to everyone;
it can even mean different things altogether, who knew,
but when it comes down to it, we all want it when the day is done.

One type of peace is inner peace, one that is harder
I think, because it is more of a personal struggle for each;
it isn't something you get an app for, you can't copy, you have
to learn from your heart..it is a personal thing God can teach.

It is nothing that can be forced on you if you aren't ready
like other things in life you have to go through regardless of timing;
each person, their path of peace inside can take different turns
sometimes you are ready, other times you wont see it coming.

People say that having that peace inside you is something
that warms your heart, makes you feel love and feel safe too;
they say that its a giant hug from a protector that will never let go
letting you know that you are never alone, that there is love for you.

I wondered about that... it sounds so good, to have such things
so many that I talk to, they say the same thing about it all;
it has to be true, what they say, what they feel inside, right?
I mean, if they have felt this way, the stories couldn't be that tall.

The only thing that I have wondered about, still catches
my heart in a snag every time and pulls it from finding that peace;
is allowing forgiveness for all the things that I have done to myself,
to others and the longer time goes on, I feel the guilt increase.

I do not know how to be free of it; I have tried to let it go,
asked before but didn't 'believe' I could be forgiven... that He was there;
I could still feel the pull of something dark inside of me making me
doubt, pulling me away, I needed... but didn't know how to say a prayer.

So peace, it is I think, something chased after, wanted by everyone
possibly gotten by many in some ways, truly gotten by a few;
I know that I would love to have at least a little bit of peace
in my life from the way things are so that I no longer turn so blue.

If having peace in my heart helps to bring more happiness
to my life, helps to settle things in my mind and in my heart too;
how great that would be... I am on the right path, but the journey
is slow as the doors to my faith are rusty, but in time will be good as new.

I too have a lot of 'symbols'... I have the peace sign on
lots of things that I own, even a key chain I keep close by me;
not that I was old enough to remember the whole 'flower power' thing
but tie dye, peace signs... they just fill me with happiness, think of liberty.

So call me crazy, or call me a lost or a late 'flower child' if you want...
I have heard it all before and I really do not care one bit at all you see;
because I am who I am... blonde hair, blue eyes, crazy at times, fun,
wild music of all kinds, love of VW Beetles, tie dye.. you can't change me!

My peace will come... in time, in its own way
that is up to something so much bigger than me I know;
as long as I do not lose hope along my journey I will be okay,
keeping faith that my day will come, to my better life will I say 'hello'.

Andrea Kine