sometimes i want to just scream like they do. |
The screaming, the cursing, so much fear The hate, the anger, so many tears My heart, itâs beating to fast It hurts, too much for me to bear The pain, I canât live with it My lungs, I canât breathe The people I love, they are hurting Donât you care? The people I love, they are angry Please stop here I know you can see I know you can feel The strain we are put through Like a band pulled so tight, one more word Well, no more fights We will separate, emotionally and physically We are already half way there Mom and dad, they fight like we use to Itâs always like that, canât you see Iâm too terrified to move, to even speak Itâs always like this I remember now I remember a child, so scared and tough Holding her mother As you fought Screaming, screaming, yelling, and words Iâm so frightened Now I canât scream, now I crying I canât be mad because of the little things you did Not your intention, I know it wasnât But then it never was your fault Not even when you where the cause None of you meant to fuel this silent storm of mine I canât be mad, they said so Not with words, not that they know âHe didnât mean itâ âHe said sorryâ âYou donât understand. Please donât yellâ âDonât raise your voiceâ âIt's not a big dealâ It is a big deal. You all scream You all yell Yet⦠Iâm stuck in the silent storm of emotions What is meant to be let out and embrace with pure thoughts and care I bottle up like an ugly secret that isnât to see the light of understanding Because of your fights Because of your words Because of your damn actions I canât even say a word I canât because of the fear My true fear Fear of my silence But then⦠Maybe that should be your fear, too. Because once my silence breaks And I promise, there will be a break, I will be your main Fear. |