Paradox

I had a long, sad dream
I was rolling up into a shell
My heart, full of steam
Undecided; how should I tell?

Things stick up in your memory
Little by little; all the tears
Consumed by a theory
That there are sincere fears

I should know deep in my heart
He couldn't really love ... me
Oh this knowledge is so hard
Is he using me? Listen to my plea!

Sometimes you try to escape
From your own very self
But it sticks on you like scotch tape
I must find the answers inside myself

I can't, it hurts my brain
He must follow his own way; alone
I must laugh, dance under the rain
I must listen to my heart; atone

He is breaking me down
With caresses and tenderness
He is much younger, all around
Me, older, and captive of sweetness

I need to run, escape far away
Recover my freedom, and life story
I can't even in my mind fly away
I must persevere, find my life's glory

Why would he like me; his arm on my shoulder
Already on my face there are crow's foot
I also know that I am beautifully older
I have, I must discover where I once stood

So there are things I need to remember
Whatever you do, you know, you are doing it right
When you stop looking back each December
And feel that everything's going to be all right.


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