Spun Out On The Carousel

My senses take a wild ride when I lose a job I wanted...

A sickening swirl
floods my system
As I watch my chance slip away
The job I wanted
Now belongs to... him.
I press my lips
Into some form of a smile
A grimace, really
Trying to play the forever friend...
My ears begin to ring
As I feel my senses careen out of control
The churning in my gut
Swells and threatens
To let the nausea
Project the contents
Of my stomach outward.
I pray it lands on... him.
Sweet justice in the form
Of my lunch...
I watch him laugh
Taking in the attention
That was due me
My hungry ambition takes another blow.
I slink back into the corner
Hiding behind the shadow
That grows with the putrid festering
That lines my heart.
The room spins again
And I shuffle away
Trying to hide.
My balance wavers
and my vision blurs
I want off this spun out carousel.

33 lines.
carousel and envy (and some anger as well)

Prompt for: Jan 25, 2016 (Fyn) ▶︎

Subject or Theme: Pick one of the following list: carousel, frigate, flower market or library. Then pick one thing from this 2nd list: depression, envy, revenge or anger. Then write about your word in the 2nd list in terms of your choice from the 1st list. In other words, use aspects of your choice from list 1 as a metaphor for the emotion in list 2.

Word(s) to Include: hunger, careen, ring(or any derivatives of these words)
Forbidden Word(s): anger, depression, revenge, envy, emotion, feel.(or any derivatives, compound or hyphenations of these words)
Additional Parameters: Use your word from 1st list in the title. Must be at least 24 lines. Down at the bottom, put your two choices. Rhyming or not. Remember, do not use forbidden words ANYWHERE, including title or title or the brief description.