Unending Darkness

How do I go on, when all the strength in me is gone


I’m stuck in limbo the in between,

Floating, not knowing, I can not see


The darkness surrounds and fills me completely,

I reach out and touch it oh so meekly


Not sure whether to welcome it or send it on its way


It heels and lurks awaiting my say


It’s quiet and dark, not uttering a sound

As I float in mid air gathering what I’ve found


To accept and go through my new discovery


The darkness accepts and offers luxury


A peace a quiet the calm before the storm


Short lived as it is I know it’ll explode


But to hang on just a little longer it hurts so fucking much


I just want to let go and let it overcome the muck


The muck of my soul the muck of my being


I’ve been a disgrace I am now seeing


For I’ve become weak unable to hold


No more warmth, all I feel is cold

Get out you filth you wretchedness


You’ll just engulf me with your treacherous stench


Instead of freedom you offer chains


Disguised in goodness disguised in grace


My eyes are open I finally see


The darkness is dispersed from all around me


“I don’t want you,” I say, “but you want me,”


To fulfill with rage and obscenities


You’re disgusting and I’m no better


But now I know I could be tethered