Enablist

Falling for someone a long time ago who wasn't ready for it.

There are words you can't bear to swear
before you slit your wrists goodnight
again, even if we know what you mean.
Before I could imagine transcending love
I just wanted to move beyond the verge of it;
the cusp is the drug and a must
in a cup too shy to be a jug
waiting on a juggernaut of
what it must be like to no longer
not be enough...to have you
when you didn't know you or
the chances you could take to break
the unfinished mold before it finally took hold.
It's all I wanted you to see.
It's all I wanted you to be.

         15 Lines; "Enablist"  from "World By Design"