Take a second!

If you could take a second to see what goes on inside my head,
then maybe you would have an understanding of why I want to be dead.
I feel alone, even when I’m standing in a crowd.
I’m trying my best to make you proud!
My life is always full of stress.
My mind is a constant mess.
What have I got?
In my eyes, not a lot!
I feel empty and alone.
It makes me sound selfish because I’ve got a place I call my own
A place where I should be able to clear my head,
It makes me feel sad and lonely instead.
The answer to happiness isn't a dog or a cat
because a person needs more than that!
Although my dog means the world to me
I need more in life to feel free.
I try to walk under your roll,
but the hallucinations are making me lose control.
It’s hard when you doubt everything I do,
Especially when I look up to you.
What would you do if you could hear,
An unknown voice telling you to kill yourself in your ear?
Would you be able to handle these voices
they have a say in all my choices.
I’ve tried my best to make them disappear;
now I live my life in fear.
They won’t go away,
They Have a lot of awful things to say
I feel like I’m in your way
I feel like I’m not loved
I feel like I get pushed and shoved,
I can’t help the way I feel,
But you can’t see that so it’s no big deal!
I try my best to keep you happy
But every decision I make you get snappy!
If you could take a second to walk in my shoes
then maybe you would understand it’s not just a case of the blues.