Another poem from the great Nixie

I’m sorry that I wasted your time.
But I deserve to die.
I deserve to die.
I should be dead.
I’m only hurting people by being alive.
I deserve every pain in the world.
I’m ruining my brothers life.
Everything is my fault.
My fault.
And I’m sorry.
For everything I’ve done.
For everything I’ve failed to do.
It’s all my fault.
I should be dead.
I’m sorry for still being here.
I’m sorry I don’t have the courage to leave.
I know I’m only hurting people.
Everyone wastes their time on me.
I don’t deserve it.
I’m planning of ridding you all of my burden.
I know all the pain I’ve caused.
I know how I’ve hurt you all.
I’m sorry.
So sorry.
I’m sorry if you think you could have stopped me.
You couldn’t have.
I’m sorry if you think you made me do this.
You didn’t.
I just want to say goodbye to everyone,
And then I promise I’ll leave you alone.
Forever.
And I really want to do that.
I feel so bad wasting people’s time.
I’ve been trained by my family to stay out of the way and shut up.
To disappear.
And now I have to put all that aside
For my the few people that seem to care.
I’m reminded everyday of my worthlessness.
And I’m trying so hard to be strong.