DEPRESSIVE INSANITY

DEPRESSIVE INSANITY

It is a strange thing to behold, to watch yourself slipping away,
Falling deeper and deeper within yourself day after day.
To stand in your mind and see all the different walls,
Then to have the bricks break apart, crumble and fall.
Tumbling down upon you, seeing your sanity flee,
Knowing you are going insane, screaming "Is this really happening to me?"
Upon the tight wire, I constantly try to walk,
Trying to keep my balance, when I am forced to engage and talk.
Hiding deep within the rubble that has fallen down upon me,
Not trying to dig myself out of the debris of insanity.
Where is my escape, trying to find my path out?
My mind ruminates continually filling me with so much self doubt!
I long to stand and place my feet on solid ground,
A task that seems impossible as these self destructive thoughts keep me bound.
Where is my freedom, and the peace that I desperately seek?
The storm of my mind rages against me making my outcome seem so bleak.
Fractured bits of light flow into the darkness of my mind,
Trying to give me hope for a peace I can't seem to find.
So where do I go from here? Trying to cling to hope,
What tools exist within me to help me cope?