|| Other dimensions, other fates. ( BRIEF MENTION OF SUICIDE. ) |
Every so often, I sit awake at night. Not from a nightmare, not from a shudder; voluntary. I sit awake, wanting to picture alternate realities. Wanting to picture; what would happen, if I simply vanished? What would happen, if I wasn't me? What would happen, if I lived another life? What would happen, if I were a monarch? What would happen, if my tale was told happier? What if it wasn't? What if my tale, never` existed. It's not a nightmare, or a shudder. What if. What if and me, have a rocky relationship. I want to tell, I want to visualize. But how can I? When those what if's, aren't always my happy ending? What if my friends don't have a happy ending? As of now, we are all (not so happily) living our school life. ' Prime time, ' they say. What if it doesn't end that way? If my friends were to be murdered, to commit suicide, to push themselves over. Or to have a happier ending; to graduate with honours, to move away, to leave me with my thoughts, my` 'what if's.' So what if my ending isn't happy? What what if it is? What if I'm in a coma, and this is all a dream? What if we stopped questioning, and what if we live in the present? Or what if I go to bed, and I wake up good as new tomorrow? And with my last what if, I must wish a good night to you. What if we stopped questioning, and what if we live in the present? What if, we say goodnight. |