Understanding

My Anger:
I see a giant red fire ball circling me, slowly then faster and faster. It wants to draw me in, making me want to go in, and hit, break, damage anything, and everything I can. It is hard to pull away, it's so strong. I feel drained and tired of being in this high energy ball of negativity, and so I turn my head and walk away.

My Sadness:
Turning away from Anger, I see a blue cloud, not white, and raining tears. I feel my own tears as they begin to fill my eyes, and then my whole being starts to tremble. Now there is an ache in my heart that deepens as the cloud approaches, getting closer and closer. I feel so sad. I'm tired of being sad. So I blow the cloud away, and walk away.

My Hopelessness:
I turn yet again and see sand. It is slowly sucking in everything around it. Quicksand. I'm hurrying, trying with all my might to stop what is happening, but no matter how hard I try to move things from being sucked into its path, it does no good. It seems as though my whole world keeps sinking. Everything slowly gets sucked into an abyss. There is no stopping the quick sand, so I walk away, and head in the opposite direction. I let the sand take its course.

I'm Tired:
I come upon a tall mirror and see my reflection. I can also see in this reflection, on my right - the fire ball, still turning, burning, and endlessly raging. On my left - the blue cloud, still weeping, crying and drowning in it's own tears. I see the quick sand behind me, still sucking the life from the world, my world.

Then I look at my self. I can only see this tired old woman. She tries to smile, but can't because all of her energy is being sucked away in one form or another.

I step around the mirror leaving it, the fire ball, cloud and quick sand behind. I begin walking. I take deep breaths while looking down at my feet taking one step, then the next. One, two, three....., I'm counting, because counting calms my mind. I'm staying only with the thought of each step, this visual, and nothing else. This goes on for some time, until all that I have seen, or felt, has slipped far far away, and I am in a place of calm.