Where is?

Half of this poem is from 1984 and the other half 2025. What a lucky find.

Where i?
January 1984
Where is the key to open my prison door?
Where is the light to show me the path to take?
Is there an answer to what I have been looking for?
Do I go on or repeat my dumb mistakes?

Will I always cry in icy silence?
Will I always be my own best foe?
Do I quit he sphere that I depend upon?
Do I laugh or sing or cry, for my heart breaking woes?

Can I see white clouds floating around me?
Can I feel the touch of a warm gentle hand?
Will I know when my prayer is answered?
Or will I wait and crumble and join the dry land?

Second Part October 2025

Have I learned the lessons of life?
Have I seen truth when it came?
Have I suffered alone too much?
Have I missed love or simple fame?

Did I put myself in a hole?
Did I let others put me down?
Did I want happiness so very much?
Did I let my need for love drown?

Somewhere I missed what others saw.
Somewhere I let happiness go by.
And where I am now, I wish I could change
Because I'll never get out unless I try.

I cannot believe that I found an old notebook with this poem from 1984. I was alone and feeling sorry for myself. Forty-one years later, I added part 2 and have new questions and an analysis of the thoughts that I wrote. There might be more poems come out of this old notebook. I am glad that I did not throw it away.