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PROMPT March 26th If you asked your friends to describe you using only three words, what would they say? And why do you think so? When I was a Jayhawk at the University of Kansas (crimson and blue) I was: Friendly in a talkative way. I met people from around the world for the first time, specifically Hong Kong, Ethiopia, Iran, Germany, Costa Rica, Mexico. It's why I wanted to study abroad. Innocent in a sweet way. I knew so little about the 'social' world and didn't even know how to learn about it! I transferred so that I could heal from my experiences elsewhere. My roommates were a godsend. Wide-eyed in a wondrous way. I enjoyed being in a collegiate setting. I thrived in my class work. The campus was beautiful and I've always responded to beauty. And the people were kind. I've always responded well to kindness. I was 20 when I arrived. Since then... innocence and sweetness was mostly lost in Costa Rica and later working in an office taught me that kindness and beauty are seldom rewarded. I was still friendly but perhaps too trusting. Now? People don't know me. We don't interact deeply nor for long periods of time. I don't trust but I still smile. I'm wide-eyed when I travel and respond to kindness and beauty. I've become worldly. What words now? Maybe moody, withdrawn, old. I'm worn out. My friendliness is considered annoying and I no longer have close friends where I live. Why? I've changed and become old. And Americans specifically have become meaner, suspicious and paranoid. |