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today
Today holds everything and gives me no hope for tomorrow. I am in fear, emotional distress. I'l lost out, of my homes, that I traded for my death. I can't fully say why. The reasons are for to complicated. I hate being alive but, I remain, for two. I hate this feeling I cary around, total distuction of trust and betrayals unmentionable. I sit inside my dayly gloom waiting for the wheel to turn, but it's been rusted, by too much blood sweat and tears. I am a survivor. That is who I am not what I want to be. I shake, and feel the sickness take over my life. I climbed the hieghst mountains to be thrown violently off the other side. I have nothing left. I used to have it all, and now nothing. Why? what did I do to think I deserved this? I