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A terminal for all blogs coming in or going out. A view into my life. |
Started July 1st 2019 for contests, etc. as other blogs are filling up and have other purposes. ![]() ![]() I'm starting a new blog because
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I've started an appendix (I no longer have one personally) to keep track of my Space Cadet journals for Space Blog. It's a work constantly under construction. Mind the mess.
I needed to start a folder for contests as there are so many deadlines and details to remember.
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Groan ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 11 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() didn't finish packing. ![]() 10 februar ![]() LUNAR NEW YEAR OF THE DRAGON ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 9 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 8 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I don't mind receiving MBs for my writing. ![]() 2nd place for "Round 8" ![]() The public sleigh wasn't running today and this old horse-of-a-sort struggled to reach Karegnondi City and the Spires of Freedom. We were trapped in traffic in a suburb of shards out on Georgian Bay. Thoughts: We carried a hundred kilos of fish we had harvested, enough to feed us and our neighbors through this Season of Starvation that our ancestors had once called March. We made haste in spite of the added weight. The storm was approaching from Hudson Bay. It was Wednesday and the ice glimmered in a shade of indigo. February: Babiana wasn't just a Black Hand with a stiletto up her sleeve. Her father had butchered/chopped-up pigs and goats with a knife/blade like the one she grasped behind her back. 7 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 3rd place for
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Groan ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() (scrub toes) = toes; (clean and unclutter) = neat; (Senior Center) = SCTR; 4 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() 3 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 2 februar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 1 februar 🌅 1 กุมภาพันธ์ ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 31 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 30 januar ![]() Objectives: missing people, next trip, clean table. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ₊˚。⋆❆⋆。˚₊ ![]() ![]() ![]() 29 januar 🌫️ 29 มกราคม 40 degrees. Frozen fog. Objectives: bank, post office, rent. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
Groan ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 28 januar ![]() Back in Montana. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 27 januar ![]() In transit through Taiwan. Check-in at BKK was a breeze. Forgot to take out my water bottle. No problems transfering. Got home... ![]() ![]() ![]() 26 januar ![]() Bangkok/กรุงเทพฯ Relaxing. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 25 januar ![]() Leave Udon Thani/อุดรธานี... Disastrous morning. Train ride was fine. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 24 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 23 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 22 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Buffalo lost to Kansas City 24-27. 9310 |
Groan ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 21 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 20 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I mentioned that I'm going on hiatus... probably for February. I'm worn out. Sleep, coffee, exercise... aren't helping much. Hugs would help. Feeling safe and secure would help even more. 19 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I didn't record noon temps but it got up to 91 by 5 pm. 18 januar ![]() Prajak Day Udon's color is orange. Prajak founded the city. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Emma Beddington (York) re JOY. Laughing doesn't bring me joy either. Would chickens? "The Humble Traveler" thoughts for a book. I'm not always humble. Another thought... write letters/poems for people in my past (I've done this before). Present? 17 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 16 januar ![]() Buffalo Bills 31 - Pittsburgh Steelers 17. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 15 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() UNDER CONSTRUCTION... To Dragon: ... "I think the darkest magic looms at noon, sucking all the joy out of life. It thrives not in dark corners of day nor night, but within the place where the heart no longer abides. And worse... there it no longer hides... but roams abroad." Darkest magic looms at noon, 7 sucking goodness out of life. 7 It survives, or better, thrives 7 not in dark corners of day nor night, 8 but within that darksome space 7 where the heart no longer abides. 8 And worse — there it no longer hides, 8 but roams abroad." 4 Darkest magic looms at noon, 7 sucking goodness out of life, 7 surviving in dark corners, 7 each day and night; 4 thrives within that darksome space 7 where hearts can no longer bide. 7 And worse — it roams abroad, 7 no longer hides. 4 Be the light Darkest magic looms at noon, sucking goodness out of life, surviving in dark corners all day and night, thrives within that darksome space where soft-hearts no longer bide. And worse — it roams abroad, no longer hides. © Copyright 2024 Kåre Enga (16.januar.2024) Final edit in "Forty-forth seven-day period of the Year 180." ![]() |
Groan ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 14 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I hope I'm done vomiting. Literally (well, figuratively too). 13 januar ![]() Children's Day - วันเด็ก ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 12 januar ![]() My head is fuzzy. Too much stress. I need to lay down for a bit. Pan did come home but left this morning for work. It's the 'new normal'. I tried and failed regarding buying my tickets out of here. I'll be stressed until that's resolved. To Neva: "I try to walk every day. Sometimes I just go to the market like yesterday; but we also have a 'city pond' where people go after sunset. There are places to work out, places to eat, places to dance or sit. I don't wear sunscreen. I wear a hat and a long-sleeve shirt between 10-16 when the sun is beating down on us in Hot Season. Now... it's winter, so not quite as necessary for a short walk. Working in the fields though... I had ticks, chiggers and poison ivy in Oklahoma... no joke! When I'm back in Montana I'll need to figure out an exercise routine. Walking would be great but I don't think going out alone on the snow/ice would be wise. I need a walking buddy!" ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To Bobbie on FB: "My father's father was born in 1880. He was 72 the year I was born. I am 71 now. I don't remember him (he met me but I have few childhood memories) but my great uncle Eddy was born in 1874 in Sweden. When they say "unto the seventh generation" they are not jesting. Gen Z is not an example of "spontaneous generation". They are built upon the good and bad judgments of their forefathers. In the past that would be their linear heritage or the village they grew up in. Nowadays they draw from the Global Village and K-Pop can be as influential as European or American music. 1970 may as well be as ancient as the Civil War. 1917 = WW1 in White-Eurocentric circles. 1918 = pandemic (important in my mother's family). But Jim Crow was in force and Native Americans didn't dare step off the Reservation. Different histories, some forgotten, some still healing from the scars." 11 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To NormaJean: "I edited my un-posted "Dear Me" letter. NO resolutions, just an inner dialogue between my suggestions and my reluctance to follow them. Very real... in some ways. I try to go for a walk every day. I keep track of this in Porthole. The problem arises when I'm back in Montana. A long walk on a bone-cold day? Not to forget those 42 steps going down... and then back up. I guess I could skip a couple going up if I'm careful. I'm more concerned about falling down them. Even Missoula will be chilled. -12 tomorrow; never going above 0 on Saturday. I hope my place will be okay. There's nothing I can do from here. I made sure my windows were shut. The winds will be coming down Hellgate Canyon from the north-east, but my windows face south. And winds under 9 mph. 10 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() The simple yet easily overlooked "garbage can" may be too common... kinda like sending dandelions in May to someone in Michigan. They'll just send a gazillion back. In Thailand "durian" will do. It's a beloved, tasty and, sometimes expensive, fruit but few people like the odor and hotels and means of transport ban it. "burning fields" may be too general or uncommon. The sugarcane and corn fields put soot in the air and it can become unbreathable. Air pollution is a real problem outside of rainy season. Bangkok and Chiang Mai are to be avoided. It comes with a tingling of the eyes and a cough. "Pittsburgh 1960" is a very old scent, only evoking 'fond' memories of former generations (age 65+) of the black skies of factory towns across the USA. It comes with black dust that clings like glitter and dulls everything it touches... and won't wash off. But... the deluxe package comes with a recording of the steam engines running the tracks of the Pennsylvania Railroad. And that may make it a best seller among the lung cancer crowd. 9 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Pan didn't oversleep. Some days he cannot get up before noon. At noon he went to work. And he told me what he was doing, said goodbye and even mentioned a time to come back! His lack of respect has been driving me mad. At least today went well... so far. 8 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To Sharon West on FB: "One of the secrets of gracefully getting older is seeing the mundane in new ways. I'm seldom bored observing the ever-changing world around me." 9176 |
Groan ![]() ![]() 7 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I received a couple of achievement badges for posting daily. I know... it's a bad habit. To Tracker: "Honey Bun! "Ode to a Honey Bun" I love your form, your lusciousness that never finds fault with me. I'd love you for... Any ode to a honey bun will not last past three lines. Maybe not as long as it takes to warm it up. ![]() I ate a pork and cucumber sandwich today... because I had a craving for cucumbers and I needed to use up the pork. My coffee would go good with a honey bun... just saying." To Steven: "I'll never win a popularity contest. "Porthole" ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Slow: 1 mindful eating. 2 long walks. 3 tech-free evenings. 4 quality consumption. 5 growing your own food. 6 slow travel. 7 nature baths. 20-5-3 rule. 8 chasing? skills. 9 playing. 10 reading. 11 starting a ritual. 12 daydreaming. 12 "Slow Living" Strategies That Will Increase Your Longevity, by Tanner Garrity. 6 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To Joey: "Joey's So Hot He's Melting I see X a lot (I won't join), and find TikTok amusing and sometimes educational as it informs me as to how people think and respond. I call people out on TikTok... a lot. "Ignorance, Thy Name is Human." MSN usually highlights the Legacy Media, as you put it. But... only in English. And it mostly ignores Al Jazeera, Le Monde, Deutche Welle. My cellphone knows I'm in Thailand so I get news from East, Southeast, South Asia and Australia, especially if it involves tourism or money as both are highly valued and commented upon in Thailand. Personally, I post real (non-AI) pictures and try to explain local life on the ground. I'm not a tourist agent. So... you're more likely to hear about the downside of traveling from me. That said, people are landing in jail and being threatened and deported for posting reality or sharing their opinion. This has happened in Thailand, Malaysia, Hong Kong... As for your comment about consensus. I concur. Lack of communication and the unwillingness of folks with opinions to admit that they have NO experience... (and could be wrong) leads to folks talking past each other about things they know little to nothing about." To SM: "It's been an okay week. I 'caved' and plans for where I go next remain to be done. I'm mired in quicksand. However, I did start sorting through clothes and have some ready to be packed, some set aside to be ready for when I come back, and others to be offered to Pan, gifted or discarded. I received disturbing news about where I live in Montana (will I be forced to move) but friends that live there haven't indicated that there's a problem yet. I'm confident that if I tackle my 'leaving' chores every day for a week I won't be overwhelmed." Pan came and went while I was outside. He left KFC for me. I miss him. 5 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() lookmaxxing... musclemaxxing... smellmaxxing... softmaxxing... "Instead of teaching people to accept themselves, looksmaxxers and softlooksmaxxers rank each other based on harsh and arbitrary standards, teaching each other never to be satisfied by their natural appearances. To make matters worse, studies by mental health experts suggest that, compared to women, men are less likely to seek therapy or treatments for issues pertaining to their self-image or low self-esteem. Jawlines, canthal tilts, and eye shapes: it's a never-ending pursuit, a mew-athon race to the bottom." https://www.businessinsider.com/looksmaxxing-softmaxxing-mewing-self-improvement... How about: bookmaxxing, wordmaxxing, rhymemaxxing... workmaxxing. Where maxxing means "to the max" or "obsessed with" https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/you-don-t-need-everything-you-want/ar-... 4 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() One goal is to do 1500 in 30 minutes. That takes focus and a decent pace. Some days I'm too tired, too distraught (yesterday), too unfocused (frequent) or interrupted. There are days that just getting out of bed is a victory. I do better in Thailand but I still struggle. Side-note: managed to fall out of bed today. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To Bobbie: "I left because the door was open, said the cat. But why, replied the shaking human." (But why didn't you close it? But it's scary out there! How can you be so brave?) 3 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To Crab: "I wrote poetry because... that's what spewed forth. I got better at it with time. I wrote a journal. I blogged. Both of those activities are old fashioned now. I wrote some flash fiction, vignettes, short stories, and chapters. Short suits me. I never marketed nor monetized my writing. My Muse still works but snoozes more than before. I feel like I'm in my final chapter and fading." To Nikola: "I've visited with a couple from Slovenia the past three days. They have a French Press they bought in New Zealand. I could get one here... but I don't really need one. I use an electric kettle and instant 3in1 packets. A frappuccino at Starbucks costs 140 baht; a latte at Amazon 70. My packets cost about 4 baht each. Coffee can be cheap or expensive. I prefer cheap. To provide perspective: average daily base-salary is 300-400 baht. I'm careful around dogs here and cats are careful around strangers. I do get to pet one occasionally though. No pets are allowed in the condos. ![]() To TJ: "Blogville used to be a communal place, kinda like a pub in Cork. Alack... it's old-fashioned and fallen out of favor to drive-by coffee kiosks and fancy cookie-cutter sit-down-and-hide-behind-your-ipad frappuccino-fueled fortresses (different city = same-same). We have plenty of monkeys in Thailand. They aren't allowed inside. Wordsmitty ✍️ is one of the few WDC members who comment on blogs. I'd say 50% of my blog comments are his. If he lived in Ireland I'd exclaim, "He seems to visit every pub in town." Milk and Cookies — Fan Fiction 2 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() "Let's be Fruity!" ![]() ![]() ![]() "You are a fun-loving, playful person. You can be a bit of a flirt at times, though your heart is true and you genuinely care about others." "January 1-5. Emotional survival." ![]() I need to take a deep breath and stand my ground. But first... I need to decide what ground I'm standing on. Beyond that. Keep up daily routines and decide whether I will visit a friend this week or next. Make plans to leave. This entails booking flights, uncluttering and beginning packing. More decisions. I'd rather curl up and sleep after a restless night. To Tracker: "Twenty-twenty-four... I have the expectation that I will travel more. But, although I can dream, I have no concrete plans yet. 2022 was a disappointment and scary. 2023 was settling into a place that didn't nurture parts of me that were thirsty. I have no writing goals. I'll set those at New Year's 181 on the Spring Equinox. But... I'll probably write most every day. I'll probably blog most every day. They've become 'bad habits'." To Annette: "glass bottles of grown up water ![]() I made a list of January contests so I'll be reminded. Lots of decisions to make as I may be moving out temporarily or permanently. And who knows what awaits me in Montana. Pan put a dark-brown wig on me and colored my moustache and eyebrows. I looked ghastly. I had seen the fireworks here at midnight ICT and by noon ICT when they were uncorking those glass bottles of grown up water in NYC... I had finished two entries for WDC contests. The 12 hour difference has to be negotiated; I won this time." 1 januar ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() New minimum is 1200. New range 1200-1800 with a daily objective of 1500 in 30 minutes. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() JANUARY CONTESTS: "StAG Firebox - Closed for judging!" ![]() "The LGBT Writing Contest - now judging" ![]() "The Bard's Hall Contest" ![]() "SENIOR CENTER FORUM" ![]() "Tales Shown, Not Told Discussion Forum" ![]() "Kit's Higher Ratings Contest" ![]() "Dear Me: Official WDC Contest" ![]() "Invalid Item" ![]() "First and Second Chance Poetry Contest" ![]() "Hook of the Book" ![]() "Share Your Faith" ![]() "Roots & Wings Contest" ![]() |
(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs/newsfeed/notebook) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. Groan ![]() ![]() 31 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Caught the fireworks on video. ![]() Pan sent me a photo of his sister and family. 9100 views as of today. 30 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Cozy/comfort; routine/boring; adventure/seeking; beauty or money; right/wrong/whatever; internal/external; fear or certainty. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 29 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Fed the elephant again. Prompt: "There's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it's sent away. Sarah Kay. My response: I like the prompt and the image it evokes. But, I'm not a beach person. The first time I saw the ocean was February 1974. It was a tropical night with the Southern Cross in a pitch-black sky. Hard to find one of those these days. I was at Manuel Antonio in Costa Rica, long before it became a tourist hot spot. The lapping of the waves depressed me in a way I hadn't experienced before. 28 desember ![]() Grief will have grip on you until you let it go. It'll hide in dark corners but light can cleanse even those. And lightened grief becomes a memory and then a wisp of distant clouds. Thinking of Serena Blade (Huser:letyv1981) 4 You're not okay... and that's okay. In time you may be okay, but not today. Be kind to yourself and surround yourself with kind people. Withdrawal would be a natural response but I don't recommend it. Staying connected without having to mask your grief would be better. I found that having one small very small goal per day helped when I was in shock over events years ago. Now, I take walks (noticing both the beauty and ugliness along the way; it keeps me grounded), exercise (because I have control over that), write (tears and rants) and try to stay connected by saying hello to anyone (even a chat about the weather helps). I have big decisions to make this month, but today I'll just do the above. To Lyn: "I hesitate to respond because I'm living a different reality and my childhood was different as well. In Montana I've switched beds (from twin to queen) over the years from 3 spots (the fourth has the kitchen). It's a struggle when too much stuff is crammed into two rooms. Easier to just move something into the hallway and back again. When I return I want to downsize. In 2022 when I desperately needed help Bry cleaned and helped me unclutter. She's much stronger than I am. One of the key decisions was taking furniture down 2 flights of stairs and placing it next to the dumpster. Here in Thailand I don't have as much but need to seriously reorganize and give stuff away or bring it back to Montana. Regardless, our beloved rice-cooker stays. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/crenshaw-bill-against-college-dei-oaths-... 27 desember ![]() I was so tense all night. Visa renewals are NOT automatic. I had difficulty coming back from Malaysia a month ago. So... my visa was up tomorrow. I went today, paid my 2.000 baht and now have until January 27th. Easy-peasy but nerve wracking until it's over. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 26 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 25 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I worried about Pan not eating, but he did eat some late in the evening. He seems okay... but I'm not fooled. He's muttering to himself. That's better than catatonia. Received merit badge today for finishing 40 words challenge. I'll post one more. |
On-line article: Even in a religious society, telling someone that you’ll pray for them can come across as disingenuous. Praying is all fine and good, and some people are well-meaning and the like, but it’s not really a show of sympathy, and it’s not really particularly helpful either. It extends to other places this statement is used, such as in online circles and beyond. Maybe instead, we can try and come up with some genuine heartfelt words that sound sincere and isn’t the same parrotted statements. To Storm: Time by volume... like filling up a balloon or a room or... I dunno. My morning routine was about 1 meter squared... cut in half. How many squares can I stack in a day? What's the size of my room/body/life I inhabit? I'm filling up my time dog paddling through this experience in Thailand. I figure that swimming is better than drowning. Been there before. My relationship... is rocky at the moment. Nice 1 minute snuggle this morning; but frankly, I want more. Regardless of his issues... I could use a therapist to help me deal with mine. My back is doing somewhat better with daily exercise (or exorcise as I call it). I don't take good care of myself when I'm alone. I shouldn't be alone. My chiropractor friend told me a long time ago (over 20 years) that one of my issues was my mother. She used Bio-Energetic Synchronization Technique (B.E.S.T.) if I remember right. When my mother died last year at age 99 I felt a weight lifting. I was 'free'. Mind you, she'd become a sweet old lady; but, my inner child still remembered the Before Times. I find it sad in retrospect. To Robert: 1. "I really want to _____. 2. "If you take the attitude [...] that you're only doing what you want to do [...] then all the time is yours. 3. "If there's something you think you want to do, but never seem to have the time to do it, then maybe you don't really want to do it." I feel better when I WANT to exercise in the morning. I do it regardless because it has truly helped me. But I don't "work" and mornings were the bane of my existence when I did. After two cups of coffee and 10 a.m. you can talk to me now. I decided in 2009 (long time ago for Gen Z) that I finally wanted to go back to Costa Rica. Took me 35 years, but I've written about that ad nauseam. That led to travel, something I remembered wanting to do when I was 11. Advice: listen to your inner child. I wanted to come to Thailand. So, I did. I didn't "have to". Now, I'm divided. Part of me wants to leave soon, part of me wants to leave later, part of me wants to just stay. I will "have to" leave but whether I come back depends on want versus need. I only have so much time. I can waste it or spend it. Either way the Hourglass empties. My work-life wasn't totally wasted. It just felt like that at times. Would I have been happier chasing happiness rather than showing up for a paycheck so I could eat? The Solstice cometh. It's drier and cooler in Isan in north-east Thailand. The sun doesn't burn as much and shadows are longer. I can keep the windows open when the air pollution isn't dangerous. Folks are out and about a tad more. In Troms in Northern Norway the sun set around November 21st. It won't peek above the horizon until Soldag... around January 19th. In Montana it's just cold and snowy. Where I grew up... ditto. (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. Groan ![]() ![]() 24 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Pan seems a bit better; but, he sleeps and says little. He isn't here when he works and he isn't here when he's here. ![]() 23 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() It took me 1 hour to get Pan to take his meds. He's hot-and-cold (Hot-brow; frozen-hands). I'm truly upset... again. He comes home and promptly gets sick. This is not the life I signed up for. I'm distraught because I don't know what to do and I fear doing something wrong. 22 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Pan came home earlier than I expected. He feels... distant. Thais do pleasant but distant well; so, I don't know what to think at the moment. He got up to cook, but... *sigh* To Seven: My generation didn't move around as much. Once we did it was harder to keep in touch. My younger sister though still lives in the same house since she was born. Pittsburgh... wonder whether we still have family there. My Aunt Verna lived her entire life in Jeannette and Uncle Jerry was in the vicinity. New York, Arizona, Washington, Texas, Arkansas, Florida, California, New Jersey... people drifted or ran away. Once my grandfather died and my uncle whisked my grandmother away, the family fell apart. It took years for me to realize that they were never close to begin with. My father's family (centered in WNY), as grouchy as Olde Swedes can be, did much better. I even have cousins in South Carolina in the Greenville area. I should call and say hello... I'm happy to read this entry. It contrasts to my isolation, loneliness and depression in Montana and Thailand. I didn't have a close network of friends growing up but I was looking forward to our HS class reunion. Then covid... You are blessed. It's great to have friends around the world (there are wonderful people everywhere ![]() And... "This entry went exactly where it needed to go. I don't drink alcohol; but, All Hail Mimosa! I'm a bit like both of you. I'm warm but can be no nonsense. I'm a day dreamer who overthinks and overplans. Finding someone to compliment me has been a lifelong struggle. I want someone to be my 'home' but want to take them with me. Maybe I need a dog?" 21 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To?: I have realized that I shouldn't live alone. Unless it's a wee cottage in the Cotswold with a wee cat on me lap. Distance is definitely a factor in my family. In general this American notion that old folks should move to Florida to golf with other old folks hasn't helped maintain family units or communication between generations. Thanksgiving follows harvest time and a time of plenty. Makes sense to finally rest. Winter in the North was also a time of rest. Many customs are 'transplanted'. I grew up in an area that embraced the German traditions. Costa Rica embraced the Mediterranean customs. In Thailand the Northern European version has become plastic and commercial. The lights are nice though. To Joey: Not the Christianity surrounding me when I was a child. And that's the problem. It would be nice if Christians would put the words of Christ at the center of their beliefs. To Sharon: Yes. Exactly. They aren't the Words of Christ and have no right to be the center of any belief system named after Him. I'd quote Psalm 137.9 but you are quite aware of that awful verse. 20 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Pan came home... briefly... makes me very sad. 19 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 18 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() "It takes a village" — local, regional, global. Knowledge is kept alive by those who cherish it." ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
Robin Moyer Every day has an associated color. Red, yellow, pink, green-day/grey-evening, orange, sky-blue, dark-blue/purple. Older people follow the colors more than youth but most people know the day's color. Tan is worn by government officials. Police have their own color as do the military branches. Each monarch has a color associated with them as well. As do many places. Udon is orange after the flowering tree (January, February). I suspect Sisaket is yellow. Not that different from the US in some ways. Maroon was the color of my high school and also the U of Montana. Colors are not worn to funerals (black/white is appropriate) and black isn't worn to weddings (pastels are the way to go as the wedding party may be in white or red). Kitti: I miss old friends and talking to family. I'm old... so... that's to be expected. Some will die without me ever saying goodbye because... My family kept secrets. Found a cousin through DNA but did my sister share his address? Or that of another who lived within driving distance? The family gatekeepers have saddened me beyond Beyond. Sure... I get that they don't matter to you... but me? Do I matter? DNA did bring up some details that don't match the family stories... but generations of 'forgetfulness' severs the Past. (exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. Groan ![]() ![]() 17 desember ![]() I managed to get some sleep. And after my first coffee... I'm almost awake. Just listless. I dream of Tromso in Northern Norway and crisp fresh air in the Land of Darkness. It's 08:42 and I've even washed the dishes from yesterday. Still... *sigh* ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Finally... 9,000 views (noticed @ 12:32). Some good points re Texas and abortion: https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/letters-to-the-editor-pro-life-texas-shows-abo... 16 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() "I understood it to be phatic: a stranger’s way of saying I am a fellow human looking out for the youngest member of our tribe." Phatic: denoting or relating to language used for general purposes of social interaction, rather than to convey information or ask questions. Utterances such as hello, how are you? and nice morning, isn't it? are phatic. But... not for everyone. When I ask, in English, I often really welcome a response. 15 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I saw Eugene and Ype. Ate German style fried potatoes. Coke. Coffee. 14 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 13 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 12 desember ![]() Sisaket to Udon to Mukdahan to Sakon Nakhon to Udon. 10 hours... ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 11 desember ![]() Sisaket... ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() TAINAN YEAR of the DRAGON Anping Light District @ Lin Moniang Park, the original 1661 Taiwan Boat Park along the Anping Canal and Anping Recreation Pier. 3 Feb - 10 Mar 2024 except 9 Feb. High-speed railway light district @ Tainan Convention and Exhibition Center and its surrounding venues, Sharon Green Energy Technology Demonstration site. 24 Feb - 10 Mar 2024 except 9 Feb. 8974 |
(exercise) = Exor. (observations) = obsv. (s***,shave,shower) = ss&s. (read something) = read. (comment blogs) = bogs. (BoyLove series on-line) = ytBL. (Thai TV BL series on GMMTV25) = tv25. (write poetry or prose) = PorP. (take a daily walk) = walk. (buy something) = shop. (take a photo) = foto. (video) = วิดีโอ. (speak Thai/Lao) = pôod. (learn Thai) Thai. (go-into-the-water) = pool. (clothes) = wash. (cook something) = cook. (tidy up) = mess. (travel) = trip. (noon) = เที่ยง. (talking to ex-pats/travelers/strangers in European) = chat. (Thai teaching book) = book. (hand written journal) = jour. (contests) = test. (water) = agua. (National Blog Post Month) NBPM. Groan ![]() ![]() 10 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I managed to order food at the market. Reaction to my use of "sao". It's Lao for 20 not Thai. 9 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 8 desember ![]() Really bad mood as Booking and Agoda pissed me off for different reasons. I don't like misleading info and don't have time to play games. Waste of time. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 7 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 6 desember ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Its reviews are 7.7... not promising for an office rom-com. ![]() 5 desember ![]() Father's Day ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 4 desember ![]() I fell flat on my back in the bathroom. No damage... I think. I'll have Pan check later. I lay in bed for a while. No exercise this morning. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() To AmyJo: "I don't believe in the Apocalypse; but, why not be spiritually present every day? That I can understand. I think that there's a certain fear of the future and the unknown. Solution? Look around. Be present. Be joyful for all the Beauty surrounding each and everyone of us." I started watching a TED talk about being single and happy. At this stage in my life it would be less drama; but, I really suffered being alone during covid. Which is alive and well in Thailand by-the-way. Congrats on successfully completing the One-Line Lyric challenge with your entry "Bittersweet, for the most part bitter [180.xxx]" ![]() 8853 |