They just don't go away |
Oh no! They're coming I can hear them. Voices surround me telling me things in deep, low voices. A whisper. No! It's more like a groan or a mumble, maybe a snicker. No! It's a whisper. I stand there sweat starts to fall I begin to shake. Here they come! They're in my ears telling me things that I don't want to hear "It's your fault" "You did this" "You're no angel" I cover my ears and close my eyes hoping for this to be a dream. "Confess... confess... confess!" "No!" I hear a scream I realize that it belonged to me. "No," I say, no a whisper and then I hear a snicker. "Fine, But you will pay." a whispers says I try to be brave. I put on a tough face. I snarl at something that isn't there. The whispers, they turn to snickers, then giggles, then laughter. Laughter! I can't stand laughter. That means I'm humiliated. It grows louder and louder and louder. I cover my ears "Stop it!" I scream my body shaking again, "Stop it." I whisper, my voice breaking. "Just confess." the whispers say "Confess and it will all go away." "No!" I find myself boiling, " I did nothing wrong." But then the laughing starts again. Ringing in my ears. Even as I cover them, the laughter is still loud and clear. "Confess..." I hear whispers through the laughter. "No..." I say. My body not feeling certain. "Confess!" the whispers are a yell this time and the laughter grows. "No..." I say again, my lower lip quivering. "Confess! Confess! Confess!" "NO!!!!" I yell at the top of my lungs. My voice showing no breaks. My fear gone. And then the laughter and the whispers stop I hear nothing. I take in air and place a hand on my chest. I have won. Until next time. |